I'm ready to get fucked. I've been wearing chastity consistently for 2 weeks. I've practiced with a dildo. I'm ready to service someone. I'm ready to dress and let them go to town. I need this. Now, to find the safest way to make it happen.… Pročitajte više

I tried it with a dildo. It was 7 inches long, and fairly big. Way bigger than mine. And I can say that I got the tip in. Pushing more hurt a lot. I used a lot of lube, but couldn't quite go much further. It was nothing like I imagined. I thought it would be VERY painful. It was just uncomfortable at first. Getting it inside was really exciting. Yet, all that said, I don't think it would've been remotely interesting if I had not been in chastity. Interesting thoughts.… Pročitajte više

So wearing Chastity was nice. But when I got a strap, it was a whole new world. It's snug, it fits perfectly, and I'm IN THERE. And what's best is that I genuinely am CONSTANTLY horny while it's on. I get more and more if I think about it. And the clitty stays soft for the most part. It's amazing. Absolutely amazing. This is where I belong after all. Clitty locked.… Pročitajte više

I am now in chastity and it’s changed everything in my head. I didn’t think it would have much of an impact. That was wrong. I cannot believe how intense it is to wear a device, to know it’s really on there, and know I can’t just touch myself casually. Watching porn became a very different, frustrating, and delightful experience as well. I have a dildo coming tomorrow. And that will also change everything I think. Can’t wait.… Pročitajte više

There's a sense of wonder in embracing a different side of oneself. Leaving behind a version of oneself that isn't comfortable or feels wrong, it can be not only rewarding but freeing. Living as one should makes such a difference. Embracing my submissive side, allowing myself to surrender to the notion that I should be in service, has been incredible. Letting go of pride and masculinity has been like a breath of fresh air. Anything I can do to emasculate improves my life. I am finally starting to feel happy with myself.… Pročitajte više

I've spent a lot of time working on masturbating like a girl. Moving in circles. Two fingers only. Never holding the clitty, just rubbing it. And it's been incredible. So much better than the way I did it when I pretended to be a man. And keeping it slow, that's the key. Waiting for the build up, letting it happen deep. Feeling the build then releasing it. That's the intimacy of masturbation for now. Until I start working on other forms of stimulation.… Pročitajte više

I intend to show some of my content...nothing super exciting yet. But a little of me doing something. My journey will continue that way, and I think I can take dramatic steps forward.… Pročitajte više

Self-satisfaction has contributed some of my best training sessions. Teaching myself to love cum, to love cock, to turn away from pussy, all of it came from bringing myself to climax. Orgasm control has been one of my biggest fantasies, the idea of not being allowed to do it until someone says has been so insanely hot. Like such a fundamental basic thing to give up, it holds a wild appeal. Much like any submission, though more profound in the fact that it means confinement from pleasure. And I look forward to surrendering that control despite my frequent...experiences.… Pročitajte više

Daily affirmations can be so intoxicating, thrilling, and long term. Every day, saying aloud 'I am a submissive. I am a girl. I am a sissy' these things matter. They create a narrative that plays in the head over and over and over. It breaks down inhibitions, creates a state in the mind that creates meaning, and ultimately leaves me feeling emasculated and prepared to be controlled. I live for this sensation and working toward loving myself as a sissy submissive, property for a proper superior.… Pročitajte više

Roles are important when following this path. And I feel utterly compelled by the role I've both been given and chosen. I understand that a man's place is in the lead sexually. Providing things are safe (for practical purposes), his choice of what happens is what happens. Where he wants to spend his seed, the position he wants, the attention he craves, it all comes down to what appeals to him. If he wants to cum in someone, he does. If he wants it on my body somewhere, so be it. And if I'm to wear it, then that ownership is accepted. Accepting a secondary role, a surrender is imperative. Lear… Pročitajte više

Something about the concept of Total Life Control or Power Exchange really speaks to me. As a fantasy or a short term play, it turns me on at a spiritual level. I find myself drawn to it, the idea of giving up decisions entirely, becoming little more than the caretaker of a body for someone else, is incredible. It's wild and deranged, taboo and even a little creepy. But when I think of surrendering like that, I have a full body chill. I want it. I appreciate the concept of giving up power to another. Living as they want. Wearing what they say. Even basic fundamental functions...eating...sleep… Pročitajte više

Losing oneself to ownership holds a special, spiritual arousal for me. It speaks to some part of me that craves to be taken and used completely. Giving up choice, having someone command even the smallest things, has a profound arousing impact. I get more turned on by the idea of someone having that kind of control than all the edging in the world. And if I happen to be in fishnets at the same time, all the better. If I close my eyes while wearing appropriate attire, and think of giving up that control, I get a full body chill. I'm touched, and if I allow myself, I can have an insane climax. B… Pročitajte više

I have resigned myself to a simple, but very real fact. My path has ensured that I will be pussy free indefinitely. I have a clit, not a cock. This can bring pleasure, but not through penetration. I've not only accepted this, but embraced it entirely. The very thought is emasculating, a little humiliating, but also thrilling. To KNOW this is the way, to feel it in my bones, is both erotic AND real. It's especially intense to think about while watching different types of porn. It forces a mindset switch to be the one without a cock in a scene. And it reinforces the truth. This is always amazin… Pročitajte više

Emasculation can be an incredible feeling. It's beyond humiliation, and moves into something spiritual. Sacrificing masculinity, knowing that the penis will not be in pussy ever again, means something. It impacts the soul. It's felt far beyond mentally. Accepting it, KNOWING it, is incredible. And it does a lot for moving toward being a proper sissy. Embracing that feeling might just do more for this path than nearly anything else. Though coupling it with all the other bits can reinforce this self-identity profoundly. Turning one's back on any form of masculinity paves the way for worshipping… Pročitajte više

Tributes probably have a bad rep for multiple reasons. One, scammers. Two, because people wait too long to spring it on someone (string them along for half an hour then mention an application fee, a tribute or whatever). Three, because the advert or initial communication sounds like they're in it for 'fun' only to find out it's a business. There's no way to spin a tribute. It's no different than camming or only fans. Only it does not have a shred of protection. The person can disappear in an instant, leaving a payer high and dry. And I have yet to meet a single 'mistress' that isn't a profes… Pročitajte više

Constraint, holding back, enjoying the command of another who takes control, these things are what turn me on the most. Losing that control, or submitting it to another gives a spiritual freedom to focus on something else. It's exciting, and it's what I feel most in my heart.… Pročitajte više

The idea of a superior marking me has me going wild. Whether it's a facial or otherwise, this is something I've been dreaming about lately. It's in my head all the time, in fact.… Pročitajte više

I am small down there. Barely an inch and a half when soft. Not much bigger hard. And this has made me so happy when it comes to dressing. It's easy to tuck, easy to control, easy to hide. And I feel so girly. I never feel masculine when I look at it. All I feel is the sense of being a proper sissy. A girl in this body waiting to put myself to use with a real man. A man with real size, control, discipline, and determination.… Pročitajte više

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My cravings are intense. I crave cum. I crave the feel, the taste, the sense of ownership taking a man's cum in me. I crave discipline. I crave the rules, the requirements, and the whims of a man. I crave to be dressed as I'm told, the perfect girl for my superior.… Pročitajte više